new stuff. continuation.

you clipped you clawed to no applause

potential start of a self portrait series?

Edward Weston inspired photo series

can you tell me what its like to die, johnny?

more studies i guess. the first one is large scale, and not done. I'm getting more of an understanding of what I'm doing. I've only started to realize that things are right when they are crazy.

decisions, decisions.

I feel like i should paint tonight. I have been in a funk. Lately ive been painting what i feel and its been fast and messy and ever changing. I need to make decisions about my painting and about my life. One thing that is really exciting is that my painting and my personal life are directly affected by one another. My paintings changed a month ago (dramatically switched from oil on panel to acrylic washes on paper), and less than two weeks after that happened i broke up with my boyfriend of three years. There was nothing wrong with either thing--the oil paint or the boyfriend. In fact, i was pretty good at both or am pretty good at both. I just cant force things anymore. My paintings might look stupid right now and my life might look stupid right now, but it feels right. They both feel like things i need to do, even if they dont make sense whatsoever.

3 weeks to settle.

Life has been fucked up lately, but its getting clearer. I'm making better art. I'm trying to do more fine art photography rather than fashion photography.

I feel like the dust is settling. I can see things better, but we will just wait until the next time i kick it up again.